Pls me ajudem a entende-la

Meninas, por favor me ajudem entende-la!!!!!!
Vejam a baixo a continuação da nossa conversa (descupem os erros no inglês) srrsrs

Christina:

Hi Lais, I wanted to let you know that I did match with another girl :( It was a difficult decision for me to not choose you!!!!!! I am sad about this.I really like you and your experience and your strong family bond. You are a smart and beautiful girl too!! I think I was too worried about you missing your family and boyfriend and wanting to go home. I know you said you would not, but I guess it was just the "mother" in me worrying about you. I hope the best for you and know you find a wonderful host family.Please keep in touch and let me know where you end up matching. If you are not happy with your host family.....call me!!!!With much love!!!Happy Birthday!!!!Christina~Datta and family

Laís

Hi! Christina,I really liked yr family and i was certain that i would like to live there with yr family and take care the kids and i know that sometimes will be difficult about the distance of my family but i really want to live in USA and i can coexist with the miss. I am certain of my decision!Does yr decision is only for finding that I can feel homesickness of my family? I would like to know what happened because I was wounding we were a match.I am sad in know that you closed with another girl, but I know that you must have yr reasons.Hope the best fr you and thanks fr all!Sincerely,Laís

Christina

Lais, You are a perfect candidate. Truly, your boyfriend was the only reason. Maybe I should have talked to your mom and boyfriend. I have heard many host families say girls that have boyfriends usually go home early because they miss them. This scared me about you. Other than this I really like you!! Do you want me to keep in touch with you???Again, I am really sorry!!!Warmly,C-

Laís

Christina,I think that if is my future to stay together with my boyfriend I will stay with him if i will go or not to USA, Only God knows what will be happened in my future. I have two friends that had a boyfriend and lived outside... one finished with the boyfriend, but the other one come back after almost two years and them they had been together. I only think that I am very young and in the first time I have to think about my studies and what I want to have of experience in my life... I know that you are married today, but I am certain that one day you already had this exactly thought. My boyfriend is one person very special, but I do not want to leave to make nothing in my life because of him and about my mother I love her, but I know that I go to obtain to be one year far.I understand yr decision, but I want that you know that I always have certainty of the things that I want.Sure! I would like to keep in touch with you , I like to talk with you.Sincerely,Laís

Christina

Hi Lais,You are very mature for your age and I like about you! I know that you would take great care of my kids and helping me in general. I believe you can be without your boyfriend and family now. I like that you have set your goals and you are achiveing them! I was defintely drawn to you for so many reasons. Mainly because you are so sweet and honest. I am sorry if I have upset you. This whole process has been very draining to try and find someone I can trust and would be a good role model for my children. There are so many girls who want to be an au pair and not very many fit your profile!!! I am upset as well.My match is not confirmed and if you like I can keep you updated on this. Let me know.Have a good night!!!Warm regards,

Laís

Hi! Christina,
I understand yr preocupation with yr family and yr reaction.
My opinion didn't change, I like yr family.... but i think that the decision is yours.
Have a great night!!
Sincerely,
Lais

Eu só sei que esse meu ultimo e-mail foi enviado na terça-feira a noite e até agora ela não me respondeu, não da pra entender ela fala que eu sou a candidata perfeita e que o match dela não foi confirmado, pergunta se eu quero continuar conversando (depois de td isso) e depois some.... ai já cansei viu
E o pior de td é que eu tinha tanta convicção q ia dar certo, gostei tanto da familia q parece q eu não vou gostar mais de nenhuma.
Mas já decidi vou passar uma borracha em tudo isso, esquecer o programa pq amanhã é o meu ANIVERSARIO J
Não vou ficar sofrendo por uma pessoa que não sabe o que quer da vida e fica me dando falsas esperanças e do mesmo jeito entendo o lado dela também e mesmo assim gosto deles.... mas já acabou td isso... só queria entende-la.